if i bitched out on you as much as you bitched out on me, i doubt we would still be friends. i am constantly walking on eggshells with you. this isnt how friendship works. this isnt even how a friend tug-boat works. call me fucking insane, but sorry if i didnt realize 1,553 miles away calls for not giving a fuck. the universe does not revolve around you, and i promise you that karma will be a bigger bitch than you are.

im half cream half milk
balancing on the top of the fence
ive fallen once.
like ice cream off cones
like hot dogs off sticks
like patties off buns
wits end hasnt ended.
for either of us.
trade riches for ditches
holes for soles.
i know here hasnt left you yet,
even though you left here.


i figure you know its missing,
and its possible coordinates,
its acting as a puzzle piece
but no one ever finishes puzzles anyway


now im the flab to your fab
the flat to your cab
the money on your tab


who taught me arithmetics anyway?
now i know 2-1= nothing.


im the camel,youre the straw.
you have no idea how close my
back is to breaking in our favors.


so meet me at the pool
i'll hold your hand
meet me on aim,
we'll ask the night away
meet me at your house,
i'll hold my breath the whole time we cuddle
meet me at room 221
i'll lend you my lips
meet me in san fransisco
for you, i will wrap my heart in a honda accord.

red or white, left or right
sorry wall for undressing you
its an arrangement i'm sticking towards
my heart was left on the back burner
but only for a night
even if i'm in last place
i'm going to keep running
leaves are all i'm satisfied with
at least until the sticks show
i'd take a bee sting for you
but that's not so terrifying
the damage is pardoned
we'll see if my notice runs true
the tables are turned
but shaped like a circle
like the ball i threw you
i dont want it back
but i think i can catch again.

prepare for battle.
cushion the blow
you know what you want
but you really cant show.

there was once
when you were full
red and bright
instead of grey and dull

but youre showing some color
youve gained some life
done stealing blood
from you with this knife

theres not much space
youve left for me
a compact spot
with a huge SUV.

lets not go down
the same wrong turn
i want to try
i want to learn.

so i modeled for a vintage clothing business in paso today:]]

today started at 6:00 am when i woke up. i went to bed at like 3 so i had 3 hours. my father and i got on the road by like 7ish.
when we got to ag, he was like 'you want a starbucks?' and im like 'uh thanks dad.' [i quit starbucks] heh
so we went to jamba juice instead and we both tried a wheatgrass shot plus a drink. wheatgrass isnt as completely disgusting as i thought it would be. its way good for you too. so we kept going after that, and we found the place reallyy easily which was good.
anywayssss, i put on a bunch of outfits, took a lot of pictures, even got to draw with chalk on a door. i wore like 3 inch heels which was crazy. haha
and i had to leave a bit early because i had to make it to work on time, but we stopped on the way to go to costco and get samples:], and little ceasars to get FOOD. ugh i missed food. so yeah i got to work and they were like 'well its too rainy to keep the skatepark open so you can go home'
no joke today was severely epic.
PLUS i got to hang out with alyssa for the rest of the day :]]]]]]] <33

i sing/scream really loud in the car to music.
i think it relieves anger somehow.
ive never lost my voice though.
its reallly rediculously hard for me to.



kevin and i arent using g's in our conversation.
i just change any words when i think of using a g.
i cant say i wrote a new blog though.