its like i am on the edge of a breakdown....
really emotional and ive been
crying like a bunch..
and it was wierd today at our soccer game
i was just so horribly pissed and
when i laughed at a funny joke
my coach's friend was like "ahhahaha even she laughed"

i dunno its kinda hard to explain because ive been surrounding myself with happiness and talking to people 24/7 but i think i just need a day to myself... but the short amounts of time i get to myself i start thinking about all the bad times in my life... so when i am with friends they are sort of a temporary distraction.